Living the Dream Acting

Hello All! I'm alive and back!!! So much has happened in the last 7 months (including the complete meltdown of my computer), here's the short version: 1. Christmas: I was thanking God for turning my life around financially in 2010. 2. New Years: Unfortunately, realized my office job was one of the most negative places I have ever worked. (Also realized I shouldn’t be working in offices anyway because they suck my creative soul.) 3. New Years: Realized my apartment situation was one of the most negative places I have ever lived. 4. February 1st: Started to have a nervous breakdown realizing I was not where I should be in my life. 5. February 7th: Walked out of my hellacious job. 6. March 7th: Found a new calling as a Music/Drama teacher at my son’s preschool. 7. March 7th: JOY 8. April 1st: Moved into a new beautiful apartment with my son. 9. April 1st: JOY 10. May 14th to 15th: After 2 weeks of training and 7 weeks of intense prep, put up the school’s tw

Okay, I'll admit it. I'm having doubts. How can I continue to afford these acting coach lessons? How can I possibly have enough time to work on my craft, my music, my dance when I'm constantly chasing a four year old around, working a full time job, barely getting enough sleep, let alone getting all the laundry done, and so on and son on and so on, ad nauseam. I'm feeling 'overwhelmed' is an understatement! Maybe I'm crazy and I'm still trying to pursue a path that's closed its door to me many, many years ago. If I'm not performing now, and I didn't move to NYC at 26 when I had the chance, and I'm still dreaming about performing more than doing it then maybe I'm just a dreamer, not a doer, and I need to stop pretending that things are ever going to be any better, and just accept that this is as good as it gets! I'm pretty nice to myself aren't I? This was a rant I began on August 30th of 2010, and one I have mentally revisit